Okay first calm down. Take a deep breath. It's late for you, go take a nap or sleep or something. Wake up have a glass of water. Just keep calm.
It'll be okay I'm sure if your post was deleted it was for good reason, of course if it was otherwise that would be an abuse of the power the mods control and I would frown upon it as would other forumers. Don't worry, next time make sure you aren't breaking a rule, is it helps reread the rules, get it up and fresh in your mind. If you were starting drama they might've deleted it as well because of that.
I know you don't seem to be everyone's favorite forumer, but if they are trolling you just report them lol and if they really annoy you ignore them maybe contact a mod to delete your posts or lock the topic. I'm sure if they see all the drama they wouldn't mind all to much.
Just stay out of trouble, keep positive. If you need a break maybe dabble away from the forum even more. Trust me I know what it's like to be in your position.