a whole bunch of dumb junk [5/24/13]

My day started out sucky. Just confusion and annoying. Everything I wanted to go right went wrong; and everything I didn't even know could go wrong went wrong. I've said a few things about this guy I like who likes me back, and how we are in an awkward-going-nowhere "relationship". Well for a while we were close and it was nice. We IMed a lot so it was kind of cool. Then something happened. SOMEONE happened. Imagine like almost the perfect girl. She is short and petite and has a cute sense of style. She never wears anything too revealing, and she nevers looks awkward. She is funny and the embodiment of tumblr. This is the SOMEONE I mentioned. I hadn't seen him very much, and when I saw him again he was talking to her. We still talked but we were never as close. I started to play a game with myself. "Find 'him'" ("him" being his name) Where is he? Beside her. What's he doing? Talking to her. Laughing with her. Joking with her. Sitting by her. Touching her. Standing with her. You can see what I'm getting at.... And whee am I? I am forced to find a differknt seat. You may be thinking "oh they should totally date like they are PERFECT for each other AMG" but when my friend asked HER about HIM. She was like "EW. Strictly PLATONIC." And he ever heard her. I knew something was up so I started mentioning it when we IMed. He would make these promises about how he would sit by me or talk to me or wait for me or hold my hand or put his arm around my shoulder. But he never did. I asked why we couldn't just joke around and hang out and his cause was "Im just not capable of doing that" AGHHHH. I starte doing this annoying thing where I would sent one word IMs like
Why
Can't
We
Just
Hang
Out
And
Joke
Around
Like
You
Do
With
(Her name here)
He got my drift and was like "are you saying what I think you're saying?!" And I was like "um yeah" a lot of stuff happened in between and he confessed that he had a crush on her and that he like her. BUT he liked me more. Weeks of being ignored and having to hear their laughter and see him put his arm around her (as a "joke" he claimed) and I called it quits. I said he wasn't ready and that I was just a really done. He agreed. Our "relationship" was over. I felt totally better. But he's still getting on my nerves. She will NEVER date him. But he has way more fun with her then he did with me. So today I had to put up with him clinging to her like a wet noodle. And I had to hear them laugh and be dumb. Whenever I caught a glimpse of him he would be doing something stupid. And I would roll my eyes. *cries in corner* *rolls away*